When my soul is heavy burdened
When I cannot understand
When I there's things I cannot alter
I will leave it all in Jesus hands

When my heart is down and dreary
When my conscience cries to take a break
When life has overwhelmed me
I will cry to have thee near me

The times in life when the road is hard
When my light has dwindled away
I will bow and cry out to my lord
For I know once invited, in my heart he will always stay.

I am persuaded he will keep
that which he has promised
When the earthly things so many Cherish
must one day be left behind

All is measured by his will
None so loving kind and true
Someday every eye will see him
Reighning above over all.

I know that my Redeemer lives
He intercedes for me
In rejoicing and obedience to his claims
I die that I may live!

For I know in whom I have believed
My life is in his hands
When tested, tried, I'm satisfied
I shall come forth as precious gold!

Even when I wonder why tho didst point the hardest path,
Yet ask me the straightest course to run
I will trust that you know best for me
and leave it in your hands.

So I will leave it all to Jesus,
For I know he cares and understands
And all those times in life I try but cannot alter,
I will leave in Jesus hands

I needed this tonight Ash... thank you so much.

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Your welcome...we all get overhwhelmed with this life sometimes I think!! Not an easy journey!!

I'm just feeling lonely tonight... very lonely which isn't my usual.

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Aww I'm sorry to hear that windy...you ok??

I will be eventually Ash... thanks for asking.

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Your welcome!!
I'm feeling down today to. There is a man on my unit I've know most my life..attends the same church I do..knows my family and extended family!! Even knows my best friends family in Australia. He came into the hospital with good prospects...and now he's down to his last few days...and who knows..maybe his last few hours! He cried on my shoulder the other night saying while he know he was ready..it was still intimidating to leave life and human nature behind!

I cried when I left this morning..cried all the way walking home while I talked on the phone to my mom. When I left he grabbed my hand and just smiled...I don't work tonight so maybe it's the last time I will ever see him alive. But I felt like it was his way of saying thank you for being there since he can't talk much now.

The worst part is..this year has been one tragedy after another...one devestating blow after another. I lost the friendship of the girl who was my best friend because I choose to stand by someone who really deserved my friendship. I lost a number or family and friends to death...some extremly young..aka 17 being the youngest. My Aunty is dying...and so much more.

And you get to a point where you don't feel you can tell anyone anymore because you sound like a drama queen..always having some major crisis going on!! And after a while..most people don't care any more..and your scared to tell them because its one thing after another so you bottle it inside...cry in the middle of the night...and sometimes your insecurities show in other areas.

And since other people don't know what's going on inside..they get frusterated with the little weaknessess!!

Sigh life can be so hard!! People think life is only hard if your poor..and have nothing..and are fighting for your next meal...but sometimes even when you have everything...life can be just as hard...sometimes maybe harder!!

Windy girl..you feeling better??

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Oh Ash... I am so sorry to hear all of this... life does throw these hardships at us that we feel so helpless against... because there is really nothing that we can do but just breath and keep moving forward.

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Feeling much better thank you.

I just needed to make a little time for ME...

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