I'm sorry if I offend anyone, I don't mean to, but I've been kinda lost in this new "culture" I just discovered about a year ago. I'm an older white woman, if that matters, and I fell totally in love with Reggae music. Does anyone ever think about the music? After that I had to run around reading and surfing everything I could find about the music and Jamaica. Now I feel totally alone. I live in a mostly whilte town, which is fine I guess, but nobody listens to the music I listen to anymore. I feel lost and at the same time totally refreshed and young and powerful again. I am looking for someone in the Jamaican community who can help me understand what I'm going thru.
I recently aquired xm satelitte radio and listen to channel 101 (the Joint) simply because I can't stand the common radio anymore. I can't stand dating ordinary men either. Something has happened to me. I hear these lyrics like I've once again 14 years old and re-hearing faith and power and logic all over again and I can't explain it. And nobody I know is doing the same thing, everyone is asleep. I know I'm not crazy. But I am very alone. Not lonely. It's just that my music now is such a Secret. What happened?

Yu ago crazy fi di music an Jamaica jus like alawe on here. WELCOME! Dis board is for yu. We listen an try fi help yu. How abou a trip to Ja? Dat wha did it fi mi. See yur PM fi mo info from Jamaica Miss. Peace an Love.

Oh my god! Did I get a response or something?
Was that patois? YES IT WAS! I hardly know what you said but it sure sounds inviting! And yes I am from another planet! hee hee ha ha. (thats a joke, laugh). Yes, I'm an alien. A white girl from California and all that, proper raised.
Oh my god, I am so HAPPY to hear from you, WHO EVER YOU ARE.

excuse me, I did not mean the word "inviting" because that means sex. I am not looking for sex.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! I've been looking for people who understand what it's like to find another culture for so long now and I've been lost where I'm at. The music I listen to separates me from everyone now. It's the truth. I can't explain it, now it's starting to effect the way I dress, I'm "looser" now.
Thank you for welcoming me.
Thank you so much.

You are no t alone...we are here for you...though you're far away, we are here to stay. Woman...KAt, enjoy being around here...lively up you self.

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o.k. o.k. the first thin you take a deep breath ... now exhale ... you'll find out soon enough, most of us here are from some where other than Jamaica..But we do have di same thin in common, the love for di Island and it's people, so chill darling, you are not crazy but those around you may be (that's right blame di other guy) Welcome Kat, di Frustration you feel it's just temporary

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"Make your words soft and sweet, you never know when you have to eat them" Saudi Prince Bandra

"We are unknown to ourselves,
we seekers after knowledge."
Nietzsche

RE: Lively Up Yourself

Oh my god, a year ago I did not know what that meant.

Do you have any idea what the words of these Masters have done for my life? Does anyone? No. Does anyone know how many times I have put on Bob Marley and Peter Tosh (most recently) to get me thru the hardest times? No. Does anyone listen to those words anymore? Where was I when I was a teenager or in my 20's and these men died? ASLEEP. But the words live on. These WORDS caught me up and saved me and shot me up like doves of love from on high and I never had a whole lot of things do that for me. This is powerful stuff. I stand by that.
This music, these lyrics are Fresh, they are as fresh as life itself. That is what I love about Reggae and the artists of the past that I am discovering and the new artists now that I am just discovering. It's like i'm discovering a whole lot more than I bargained for.

Another "lose" woman .. this one claims she's 'looser" in the way she dress ofcouse.... just playing with you Kat ..Welcome again

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"Make your words soft and sweet, you never know when you have to eat them" Saudi Prince Bandra

"We are unknown to ourselves,
we seekers after knowledge."
Nietzsche

RE: take a deep breath ... now exhale ...

REALLY? is it ok now?

You are so excited..thats such good energy for the love of Jamaica and it's things.

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Dear Princess Black,
I really feel comforted now knowing your'e a woman and not a man. I don't know why. But at first I thought I'd get an automatic response from a male. That would have been ok but then I would have gone thru all the stuff of having to explaining where I was actually coming from etc.
You caught on right away. I'm grateful you were the first one actually "out there", know what I mean?
Thank you again.
K

"out there Kat"? no I do not know what you mean. Why would you think I'm a male anyway? But I'm all female Katty...(mind if I call you Katty) By the way, the men are around....they'll post too.

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RE: You are so excited..thats such good energy for the love of Jamaica and it's things.

I know only one Jamaican in this town. He is a good man with a good family and he owns a restaurant. He has also worked fulltime for 26 years at the local prison. I think he's Rasta because he keeps his hair up in a thingy. He is very kind and gentle. But I avoid the place because I don't want anyone to think I'm doing something wrong. I'm not. I was just looking for some Jamaican culture and there is no other in this town. He understands that. He is very decent.

Meanwhile I try to look for Jamaican friends somewhere near where I live. It is impossible in Northern California. I was once invited to a family picnic (all Jamaicans) but was too shy. I felt like I had no purpose to be there. In some ways the Jamaicans treat me with a little suspicion and they should because they don't know me, but on the other hand I know my own heart so I have to continue to persue my desires.
There are unique reasons why I want to know this culture. Reasons why I feel comfortable. And that is why I can't quit. I will get pushed away from time to time, but I have to keep going. I have to. There's something precious at the end of this rainbow for me and it isn't "foreign" at all. Not to me anyway, but I can't explain it.

Dear Princess Black,
RE: Why would you think I'm a male anyway?

Because they're all over the place, not that that's bad but I wish I'd find the one that I actually needed (ha ha). It's been my awful experience in the past that when I post somewhere MEN immediately come around. So I get bored and go away. This has been the best experience I've had so far, helped me open up actually. Yes, I'm glad you're a woman. I needed that.
I'll need men later..... but not now. OK?