14 trips in one year! Amazing what true love can do!!!!

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With a whole lot of skill in juggling money, jobs, and selling off pretty much all you have to sell. Plus, working about 80 hours a week when I was home.

I look back now and wonder how I ever kept my sanity through it all.

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There can be no dought of your love and commitment to Jomo and your relationship. I think you should write a book, I know I would buy it.

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SCG -- I think many of us have "good books" in our heads and hearts about our Jamaican experiences. I'm sure you do too . . . would you finish dat thread now about your trip?????

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LOL, i dont have anything else really to say, I could add more pics

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More pictures would be good.

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Hey friends...
So I got to thinking...if we all have stories to tell, why don't we write a collection of short stories...I've already started mine...it's called "From Afar"... I've been working on it for 4 years...mostly theraputic reasons...but I got to thinking...

If Stella can get her groove back..we could throw a whole damn party!

(But we won't talk about what happened to poor Terri--damn...that just sucks sideways!)

Lilly... I soooo feel your pain girl...we can delude ourselves into thinking that we can "go back" and do it differently, but don't think I don't still have "that number" on speed dial. His will be the first one I ring before I get on the plane.

It sounds like next summer is going to be the time and place for a bunch of us crazy people to meet! Let's make sure we keep our planning up!

peace out!

Ditto that, MissB. And the stories . . . I write them again and again and again in my head and in my heart. They all, however, have happy endings . . . much unlike the "true life" saga that I live with my first JA Love.

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oh girl...it's more and more real the more you tell me! do you need to pm me?

MissB, you're so sweet. Read my Trip Report - MoBay in June and August and you'll get the idea of what's going on. I've backed off totally . . . but he still calls (intermittently) -- and it always makes my heart hurt and makes me question my decisions. I will be in Negril in 43 days . . . we are booked together for 4 nights -- but I am trying to make my decision whether or not I want him to spend that time with me. One minute I do . . . the next I don't.

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I went through that once with my stalker. I spent months trying to figure everything out and back off. The more I backed off, the more he was in my face. So, I would decide to spend time with him. He'd ruin it. I'd go home crying and confused. The last time, I refused to let him on the grounds of the resort. He begged and pleaded till I went to a restaurant with him. He was sweet, charming, funny, and I knew that day it was over. I cried when I left him; but I knew I made the right decision. It was a game to him. He made me fall for him all over again, just to turn into mean, controlling, stalker every time I did see him. I couldn't take the uncertainity and mind games any longer. He still calls to this day. I now avoid all contact with him.

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JG, I'm sorry that you went through this. I'm sure you're a stronger person because of it. Mine is not controlling or a stalker . . . it's just the uncertainty of the "relationship" -- and the promises . . . that never come to fruition that drive me insane. I deserve to be more than a 3 minute phone call every few weeks. Baiting me with line that "Things are just a likkle up and down with us right now but will be okay soon come" just isn't enough anymore. If we were "okay" -- he would follow through with everything he says he'll do, he'll be in close contact, and he will do the right things -- all of them for us to be together. None of that is happening . . . so I stay away and don't call . . .

I think my decision is made. It's just following through with it . . . in writing -- because if I call him, he'll "talk me out of it."

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Don't you see, it's the same thing, Lilly. He keeps you on the line, reels you in every once in a while, and then goes back to the old ways. It is mind games, plain and simple. He doesn't want you to go completely; but he doesn't want to really put any effort into it at all.

Speaking from experience and learning the hard way, I would avoid him at all costs. Once you finally get him out of your system, it will better all the way around.

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That's the hard part . . . getting him out of my system, LOL!!! Once that's done, the rest will be easy! It's hard to let go of "a legend". It's become clear to me that I'm not in love with him . . . but rather, the legend I created in my mind about who I thought he was!

Im'ma write that book!!! Oh the stories I could tell!!!

Thanks, JG. I appreciate your support.

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There are truly wonderful men out there, Lilly, who know how to treat a lady. You have to rid yourself of any negative energy and move along.

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