Today is a bad day, none of my friends are up.
Plus none of my friends understand why I put myself through this. They say you can find someone closer. I guess they just never experienced this feeling I get with him.
Its really like no other Ive felt before.

Ive done LDR once with someone in Ontario after being together for 2 years.
And I didnt feel like this.I never missed him. I could care less if he were to come see me.

I miss my baby so much that I dont even wanna talk to anyone or yet leave my room.
I dont wanna eat.
I dont wanna sleep.
I just wanna smoke theese damn cigarettes that Im supposed to be quitting before september.
Its all I think about.... and I cant get my mind off it.

My baby than tells me its okay, think happy thoughts.
Think about Jamaica.
I say thats the point baby, all I can think about IS JAMAICA.
Its all Ive thought about for 3 years before I met him.
Its worse because now its not only my family and friends there.
Its the love of my life.

Aw honey I know how difficult it is. I try to focus on keeping myself busy with workouts (take out the frustrations with the weights - lol) and seeing the big picture. You have to eat and sleep and keep spirits up somehow. You want to be strong for yourself and for him. I'm sure he wouldn't want you to be so unhappy.
Anything at all that I can do, let me know - short of anything that costs money - lol - but I'm in short supply on that.
It is hard on me but maybe not as hard because I'm used to being on my own all the time - not sure.
I know the happiest I have ever been in my life is when I was with D in JA.
2nd place would be when I'm at the beach in PEI home.
So I just picture D and I down the road living part time in JA and part time in PEI - this is something we both want someday.

Also, I've had a really rough week at work - but I'm going back to school - I almost had a complete breakdown this week - but I just kept thinking - I have school, a new career - hopefully a few years from now - D here with me and trips to JA and a good life.
Happy thoughts

Well I'm about to make the biggest decision of my life...and it's freaking unbelievably confusing. Not the decision...just trying to do it mostly alone. You never realize how many haters there are in this world till you need support. However I must say..I have a few lovely people in my life that are my saving grace...aka Lula!!! I just hope that I can keep my spirit up!

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If its your wedding that you are talking about Ash maybe people are not ALL haters maybe some are concerned?

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Ok here is something that really reallly really pisses me off......Every morning I am just laying here in my bed, minding my own business and I have the window open, so a Nice cool breeze will come through my room while i am enjoying waking up slowly. The guy who lives down stairs, doesn't want to smoke inside his house for whatever reason...and so he goes out on his patio and smokes cigarettes.....and where do you suppose the smoke goes...right in my window!!!!!! I very nicely asked him not to smoke there and he looked at me like i was Satan and said "Just close your window" Well I don't want to close my window and I should be able to have fresh air not second hand smoke!

Aww Thank You.
I was in such a mood theese last few days I told Ricky lets just get married in september just so he can come here until Im done school LOL.
Hes like Reeva, Your not thinking straight, at all!
Than he called me like like 20 times in the last 2 days to ask if Im okay .
I Feel better today tho.





Ash!!!
I know you know this.
Doest matter what haters say, ignore dem til dey fade away.
Just live your life, aint got no time for haters.
---- Just live your life, Rihanna & T.I

I dont understand the context in which some use this term "Haters" if they are "Haters" the assumption is that they are not friends or loved ones so why would their opininon or lack of support be relevant If their opininon and lack of support is of concern then it is fair to assume that they are poeple of importance in your life, so how then would they be "Haters" what is the definition of a "Hater" ......... can someone explain

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lol, I think everyone has there own term. My definition would be people who are just like aquaintances, never opinionate on anything else.
Or as you said, peoples who opinion dont matter cause your not friends.

But sometimes it gets annoying when you have people that arent your friends expressing concern. I guess it would get to you after a point. I know it does me.
As much as I know its not relevant. Im an anxiety freak haha, so I start thinking more an more about it.

most often missused word!!!!

sometimes...when ppl dont agree or offer support the way we want them to....instread of lisenting to thier perspective...they label them "haters"

HATING ON WHAT??????

i just dont know!!!!

Hmmmm I don't have anything to vent about, its my day off!! Okay so I need to vent that September is ENTIRELY too far away!!!

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Yes that is what I would think it means too.......

but in relation to Ash post she uesd the term to describe people by whom she has felt let down, due to their lack of support, which suggests that they are more than aquaintances because they are people that she expected support from, that is where the confussion comes in, how are they "Haters"?

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That is my experience too that was why I raised the question. My daughters use that term alot but its in relation to enemies not people from whom they would want or need support.

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haha Agreed lol!