Jammie . . . I've learned to never say "never". Just when you say you aren't gonna do something, something (emotion) makes you do it, LOL.

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LOL poor guy....emotion just made me tell him I can't talk to him today because it feels crappy.

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Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

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I have risen above it all...
There is no need to argue anymore...

This is now the story of MY relationship. The attentive and thoughtful man who has been part of my life for the last 5 months, the man who helped me find a place to stay in DC, the man who i spoke with multiple times a day for the last two and half months, the man who picked me up and took me to the grocery store, picked up the keys to my apartment and spent the first week in DC with me, has turned into a man who can barely manage a phone call, gets irritated at me the drop of a hat, and who I have not seen for a week. A week! I'm only in DC for a month... So I'm letting go...sadly and such a heavy heart... but I am.

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I've let go of someone I loved for 5 years he was treated like crap, he was showing me no emotion he would only call when he wanted to and when I would call him he wouldn't pick up, once we got into a fight and I left him a message on his phone saying I was sorry for the way I acted and he never returned my call, the following week he chewed me out saying I was such a negitve person and that all I did was complain all the time but wouldn't you complain if your man kept letting you down time and time again, never really showed you he loved you and never really did anything for you? I asked him if it was I he wanted in his future he's like stop worrying about that and just enjoy life what ever happenes will happen but he's known me for 5 years now, then he goes on to say what ever women walks into my life and sticks by me through the good and bad is the one for me, and which ever women I choose to be with will be so happy, I felt really hurt hearing this casue I'm already in his life so I go to him so then i'm not really the one he got mad and goes if you and I are meant to be together for a long time then it will happen if not then it won't, what the hell 5 years and he still don't know I got really hurt and said to myself the hell with this and just let it got, I changed my number and never called him again its been a week now and he hasnt' even tried to get in touch with me that says alot. Do you think mabe I was to harsh to change my number and totally cut him off?

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I have risen above it all...
There is no need to argue anymore...

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I have risen above it all...
There is no need to argue anymore...

Sportygirl you did the right thing...I wish it was something I could do right now.He's not treating you how you deserve to be treated and you shouldn't stand for that.

Thanks for your thoughts girls... I have my mojo back. No man is going to disrespect me. I think we have all been there at one time or another with someone... if it happens once, shame on him. If it happens again, shame on me. I have some sense of why the change... mostly related to his fears of committment etc. Its easy to be attentive and supportive from 3000 miles away... it doesnt really take that much effort. It's much harder when you are in their face... so we've got a little growing up to do if he's gonna make it through the end of the month with me.

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I hear you girl, got your pm, gotta have these blips to test the water hon, it'll smooth out

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Well MissB, I'm wondering if he's related to my husband. By tomorrow at this time I will be in Jamaica and have yet to see my husband. Lilly's been great Russel's "watching a movie" and will call me later. Somehow the rolling eyes smiley just won't cut it for this latest stunt.

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Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

I'm so sorry, Miss B. It's his loss.

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If you've never stared off in the distance, then your life is a shame...

I always loved the saying if you love someone, set it free. If it doesn't come back, hunt it down and kill it.

Some days, I think that is the best answer.

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If you've never stared off in the distance, then your life is a shame...

LOL... Hunt it down and kill it was where I was about to be...

Update: Things went really well tonight. I said what I needed to say. Told him what I needed to tell him. And he took it all like a champ, was totally contrite, said all the right things and I feel much better...

HOWEVER, having said all that... I am still going to proceed with caution and look for the actions to follow the words. I've always lived by the M. Angelou saying (Hot teach and I have always been on this!) "when people show you who they are, believe them." and 5 months of showing me a great guy, not perfect by any stretch, but damn good, and one week of being an ass at an incredibly difficult time professionally, doesn't warrant writing him off as yet. I'm gonna give him a little bit more rope, and he's either going to hang himself with it or he's going to have me skipping over it.

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