You are beautiful, Lilly. You made me tear up again....for my part in this, for the pain I feel behind the words, for your honesty and sincerity; but most of all because I've learned that you deserve even more respect then I've ever given you. I thought you did the right thing before on VJ and I think you are doing the right thing now. There is no shame in loving and having lost, in admitting defeat. The shame would be in letting someone take advantage of you...something NS will soon learn. I'm proud to call such a strong, smart, and beautiful person....YOU....my friend. I wish you only the best in the future.